i've got lots to blog about!
and loads of photos to upload..
but i just got back, and im leaving for work soon..
so i'll do it when i've got the time...
cos it takes super loooooong to upload pics..

CYA!ps. im gonna miss you when ur away...<3

im tired of everything.im tired of giving in all the time.im tired of loving you too deep.im tired of loving you when i know i should not have.im tired of the childish quarrels and 'no replies'.im tired of being more like the boyfriend dhen being the girlfriend.im tired of the anxious feeling whenever you take a longer time to reply me.im tired of looking at my phone every minute whenever you are playing,hoping you will care about me.im tired of your one word messages like you don't give a damn to me.im tired of saying i love you and thinking if you love me as much as i do.im tired of thinking that i love you more dhen you do and wondering if i love you too much.im tired to hear friends say i love you too much.im tired of the past unhappiness, the present drifting aparts and the future dunno-wat-will-happens'.im tired.really tired.

what is love?
Love is sacrifice, the act of giving, a cruel thorn that wraps around a heart and draws blood with its every beat.

what is love?
Love is the act of ultimate sacrifice; the greatest of all surrenders, the closest state to divinity that man can ever achieve.

what is love?
Love is the most unbearable sweetness that cannot be restrain nor can it be explained or quantified by reason and logic.

what is love?
Love is to understand when in know and believing when there is no understanding or knowing to be had.

what is love?
Love is letting go when everything inside you screams for you to hold on.

what is love?
Love is the intricate tangle of fate; unwavering in its conviction, subtle in its machinations, generous in its execution, unequivocal in its strength.

what is love?
Love is the simple wish for someone's eternal happiness, above all else.

what is love?
Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness.

what is love?
Love is friendship set on fire.

what is love?
Love is like war: Easy to begin but hard to end.

what is love?
Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

what is love?
Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit.

what is love?
Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence.

what is love?
Love is what it means to sacrifice everything for someone else's happiness, even at the cost of your own happiness.

all that applies, so I LOVE YOU!
 

well, like always, wanted to blog, but by the time i get home from work, its alr like super late? so i always din blog...
anw, i loved the previous skin, but some problems came up, so, i had to change it...
want to change the navigation pictures, but not successful..
well, anw, here are some updates...

been working for like 2 weeks alr, and erm, well, can say its all okayy?
aft working for these period of time, leg dun really hurt tat much anymore, back still ache alot more, but used to it alr...
hmm, irwan's working at samsonite now, which is like just opp me... less dhen 10seconds walking distance..
haha... kip hanging out with him at work, lunched tgt, joked tgt.. did tings we shld not do tgt... haha...
im with him so much tat all the colleagues tinks im his GF... lol...

grad nite was on tues, 17 november 2009...
it was a great nite, a superb nite...
well, i got sabo-ed and was nominated as ms siglap for my class... lol
alot of pictures taken, but all at facebook...

hmmm, tdy's my off day! :)
went to orchard to shopping..
i left the hse in the aftnn, only to realize i left my phone charging at home... but tat time, i was alr at the bus stop... walked back home, and afraid to be late, ran in the rain, and almost slipped... and the rain ruined my make up-.- met may and sis, dhen went to city hall and transfer... went to orchard and went to grab something to eat at KFC... the place whr ah bao works, but was his off tdy-.-
wilfred joined us ltr and aft done, went one BIG B I G round just to go to the toilet... waited for wilfred while he tries out clothes:) and i had many minutes of silence...(wonder who die) haha... was wilfred's 'order' and i was just being cooperative:) well,  went to cineileisure to watch movie, and stood thr for many minutes, trying to decide on a movie... well, finally decided to watch a christmas carol... rmb reading tat story b4... we watched it 3D and was quite interesting:)
hmm, went walk walk at Ion orchard.. was walking in the cosmetice level and was teaching wilfred all the different things/products used in make ups... and he was amazed~ hmm, dhen time to go back... for sis to catch penguin father:)
hmm, may and i went to tamp with wilfred to get ingredient:) *i love his type of guy:)*

haha... dhen went to queue with him at the cashier's... dhen got his super rude indian lady who scolded us just bcos we stand in the queue with wilfred and not bcos we were paying for things.. fuck sia, super rude... i've never heard a rule tat ur not to queue when u not paying and just waiting... stupid indian!

okayy larhs, shall try not to be lazy anymore and update whenever i can:)
got to go bed, tmr nid go work... still waiting for dear to call...

SIGNING OFF~

wanted to post on many occasions, but was lazy in the end.
well , im here now..
went vivo to shop for grad nite dress ytd..
and i burnt a hole in my pocket... AHHHH!!!
well, i've alr bought it, so no point saying it anymore..
hmm.. the dress? it isn't reall retro.. more of formal..
i've got pictures, but im lazy to upload..
well, ytd nite, planned many things...
planned to meet jennifer and sharry and elaine JIE...
bring them go interview during my lunch break...
also planned to meet may to go Vivo after work to shop..
in the end, received a msg early in the morning...
she said im working afternoon shift, 2pm to 11pm...
so thr goes all my plans for tdy... haiiiz...
have to reschedule it all again...
well, nvm dhen...
tmr's grad nite... hmmm... not say very excited..
well, we'll see how it goes~
*my nails are hot pink!* <3




SIGNING OFF~

back from the 2nd day of work...
was really tired today...
well, my whole body aches to be exact...
haiis.. from top to toe..
but well, guess i;ll get used to it soon...
had two new ladies coming in today...
fiona and shi yan from loyang sec:)
hmm... sales was all right?
not bad la for the first day...
well, some customers were fun=)
hmm.. did opening today,
and will do opening tmr too...
regini called in sick today,
so shi yan is on her own for the nite shift..
well, gonna rest soon...
getting up early tmr...
hmm... anything else?
oh! nicholas bro and frens watch 2012 tdy...
which i was about to go,
but had somone else tat i dun like, so i din go...
hmm... sis was at airport, but din manage to mit..
off day on sunday, maybe call sis to sentosa!


SIGNING OFF~

time to go work...
BYE~

had last paper ytd... and was over the moon...
haha... went ws at nite, bought my reserved shirt=)))))))
dhen bought new shoes for work... love it=))))))
today, first day of work...
and was given the title: sales consultant caroline...
haha... sounds so professional...
well, today was basically just setting up the place
and putting the stocks...
and i swear my back hurts now...
but overall, it was all right...
everybody's friendly and the place is not really crowded...
so it's quite relaxing.. except for the fact tat im standing 9hrs...
but im used to it, experienced alr...
hmm, doing opening tomorrow morning...
well, lets hope all's well =D

SIGNING OFF~

SCHOOL'S OUT!!!
scream and shout~
haha...
super duper glad..
never been so happy in my life b4~

yesterday was supposed to go relative house as usual,
but had a change of plan, so... din go..
daddy was working the afternoon-night shift,
so mama says wanna go AMKhub shopping...
but i guessed she must be mitting auntie winnie...
so, we went... took bus 81, dhen change to 25..
its amazing to look at how people go up the bus and alight.
and also the actions they have on a bus...
its amazing to see people go up the stairs to the top level,
only to come down again cos they see no seats...
can't the see the seat counter specially created for our needs?
weirdos!
its also amazing how an old man takes a tweezer where ever he go..
plucking his white beard sturd as he moves along...
its amazing to see a mother's love for their child,
even when their child is sick and different from people...
alighted the bus, queued for coffee and went up the elevator..
only to find out tat mama's going casino... haiis...
waited for her outside...
she reappeared half an hour later, and said we're gonna shop...
found wat she wanted and went up again...
waited for 3hrs.. luckily i had a book with me..
went walking around alone..
i've mastered the beauty, fun and joy of independence and aloneness,
but i've also experienced the feeling of togetherness...
wan you to always be with me in all my paths...
bought an ice cream and continue waiting...
finally time to leave, chatted with auntie winnie..
and its all the same topic!
wat's with the world man!
craziness is coming my way!
if this goes on, im gonna fall into depression! ugh!!!

been online the whole day, but you never come on9...
well, you did, but i was off9 at tat time..
i was in the showers... went on9 again, only to find tat u've left...
haiiz...

mugging for F&N now.. but nth goes in...
or rather, goes in and comes out...
im tired.. really tired..
thank god its gonna end soon...

well, its 3:21 and im still mugging...
dun feel like slping...
have been staying up till not earlier dhen 4am this few days..
im starting to enjoy this slping pattern....
haiiz...
people dun change, its the environment tat changes them..

hmm.. was going thru my links..
and visited choonling cousiees's blog...
and say her slide at the bottom..
and suddely had a few feelings...
suddenly miss gxy
suddenly miss kuching
and
suddenly miss shifu...
haiis...

well, gonna continue mugging again...
bye~
nites~

SIGNING OFF~

slept at 4.30am this morning...
was tired, but wasn't sleepy...
decided to get out all my notes to throw instead...
and found some books...

peeps, these books are mostly in relatively good conditions,
some may even be brand new...
but oso note tat most of them has my name already written,
and some may have notes written inside too.
they are sold at a lower price dhen the cost price,
so you can save some money=D
tag me if interested=D thanks...

Secondary 3
- Social Studies textbook.                                                     $4
-Earth, our home: Geography workbook.                          $3
-Step Ahead 3: English textbook.                                       $6

Secondary 4
-Higher Chinese textbook/workbook , 4A & 4B                $3 Each
-Social studies Activity Book.                                            $3

Secondary 3 & 4
-F&N: food interaction investigation activity book.         $3
-Discover physics textbook                                                  $7
-Discover chemistry textbook                                              $7
-Earth, our home: Geography textbook                               $6

Extras
-Maths 10 years series('08 syllabus) with answer booklet         $5
-Physics 10 years series('08 syllabus ) with answer booklet      $5
-A5 Exercise books(Siglap sec)                                               $0.30 Each
-A4 Exercise books(Siglap sec)                                               $0.50 Each
-Siglap sec file( 2 blue, 1 red)                                                   $1.50 Each
-Siglap sec chinese foolscape                                                   $1
--报章报道读后感：作答技巧与窍门                                      $5(Original price: $8)

please tag me at my tagboard if interested=D thanks!

just got back from DTE...
went to eat Japanese Cuisine..
hmmm, wasn't too bad...
saw WSPS ppl eating tgt...
lijuan, jilyn, kevin kannan and shawn=D
haha... glad to see tat pri sch frens are not 4gotten=)
and saw tat male singer and his mother and had a chat...
the mum din recognise me alr=(
haha... but i dun blame her larh...
the last time she saw me, i tink i was like still in pri sch...
waiting for babylove to come on9 again...

woleile.wohenxiwangwonengjuxuyonggandeaixiaqu.
danshiwoxianzaizhendeleile.wokaishihuaiyile.woxinruanle.

SIGNING OFF~

tired~
woke up in the morning, and started cleaning the hse..
cos i find the hse very messy and dusty...
so, i started wiping,
sweeping,
washing,
scrubbing,
drying,
hanging,
cleaning,
washing,
moping,
and the list goes on...
spent a total of 6hours to finish all the chores...
dehn, found myself very sweaty nad tired,
so, went to take a cold bath...
and washed somemore things...

finally done with everything and here i am...
was harvesting just now...
now going help babylove harvest le...
he's not online now=(

SIGNING OFF~

today's paper, totally flung it... haiis...
nvm,... anw, went to find babylove...
and well, im sorry if i made you angry or sad, baby...
i din mean to... seeing him walking home,
with the head hung low, eyes to the ground,
its just not the same you... pls be happy kay?

秦爱的，我爱你。我非常的爱你。。

Honey,
1/2 year alr worhs... time really really fly very fast... haha( i think they take red bull...xDxD) haha! i still remember the first time we met, and i believe you still rmb it too, rite? ;)

from strangers to friends is the most miraculous thing in the world:D from a simple gesture of lending a pen, we became lovers... when the moment where we met, i started to take notice of you:) the moment when we met, fate has started and destiny is destined by us:)

as i look at you, you are an innocent and good kinda boyboy... but as i look at you a couple more times, you're actually quite cute=P ( and you're still as cute=D)

21st Nov 2007, we had crew rally... we all had fun and we all enjoyed ourselves... our memories started from thr too=D mummy, yuensiang, you and i, its just so fun=D
at tat time, we sort of got really close... cos yuensiang wanted to sit with mummy, so we ended up sitting tgt=D i still rmb tat u showed yr affection for me by feeding me ice-cream=P and tat ice cream is the sweetest i've ever tasted=D

23rd nov 2007, my parents were overseas, well, in malaysia to be exact... so, mummy, grace, you and i decided to meet at crew rooom at 9pm tat nite... i rushed down right after my parents left the house. i arrived at 9.30pm... you told me that by 9pm, when i haven't reached, you were a little disappointed... and when the door opened and i appeared at the doorway, you were actually really happy and overjoyed to see me thr...=D dhen, we went to take neo-prints and went to walk walk at the nearby pasar malam=D dhen aft tat, you and mummy went yr way, grace and i went our way=D

tat nite, received a call from you=D we chatted through the nite.. as we talk, my heart flatters st the sound of yr voice=D tat way when i think i had fallen for you:) at 2.56, you send a msg to me, you mentioned that my name is very loong, and you asked if you can call me 'Dar'...[excuses!...xDxD my name has 8 characters, same as you, so its not long! haha!] well, it took me a minute to figure out wat ur implying... but after some time, i accepted=D cos!! i liked you! haha...

so on 24th November 2007, our love story officially started... and the time wan 2.58am.... i bet you forgotten the time alr=P

from tat day till now, we've been thru alot... alot laot really alot...
whenever i was with you, im always on cloud nine nad feels fantabulous~ i rmb the first time we held hands was when we were at pasir ris park... and the first time we kiss was at the staircase, and the first time we had our 'first anni' was at yr hse... haha!

dear, i wanna be with you all my life, till death do us apart... make me yours now and forever, i wanna be everything you ever need.. your wildest dream, your fantasy. your deepest kiss, your sweetest smile=D
let the stars in the sky be me saying i love you... let the breeze tat blow by you my way of saying i miss you... let the sunshine be the warmth i want to give you, so tat you will never feel cold... when it rains, it means tat i will be upset without you by my side.. i wanna be by yr side when you need me the most and even if you dun nid me, i wanna be with you... i wanna wake up eveyday and find you by my side, sleeping like a cute pig=D

baby, i love you... i really really do... happy sixth anniversary! happy half year!!

been spending the last four days at home, rotting...
rotted enuff, and finally got the chance to get outta hse..
met babylove in the morning, dhen went to ws to eat...
met may aft tat and went to sch a little earlier to study alittle...
been online since 6pm, waiting for babylove to online...
he's still not online yet...5 hours already... haiiz, nvm...

whydopplhavetopickupafteryouywunyouadmitwatyouhavedoneandletotherpplsufferjustbecauseofyou?
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omanypplpleadwithmetoforgiveyou,butimnotsureicandoit...